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Please Remember
by
Courtney Wilson
Waking up
one Sunday morning, I realize that I’m alone
My first instinct is to cry, but I’m above that -
I’ve grown
Although it’s cold here without your warm body next
to mine
For the first time since forever, I can truly say
“I’m fine”
Of course the pain is still there, buried in my
heart and soul so deep
But I try to keep it pushed down like a secret I
promised to keep
At times like this I wonder if it will ever go away
But I know I’m being silly, I’m going to be okay
Certainly not today, maybe not tomorrow
But one day it will all be gone, this pain and my
sorrow
I’ll be able to look at you as a friend and nothing
more
Keep my eyes on you instead of cowardly at the
floor
When I say I’m fine, this doesn’t mean I’m back to
my normal self
I still can’t imagine being
with anybody else
But tearless days pass, first one, then two, right
now I’m on day three
And I’ve gradually accepted that this is the way
that you want it to be
Sometimes though, when no one else is around
My mind starts slipping and I spiral back down
Any progress I’ve made disappears without a trace
And I start to think everything is just a waste
You cut me so deep that I thought I’d never stop
bleeding
The pain’s still there, but not as fresh, it’s
finally receding
Now I’m simply numb, my body is here but that’s
just a shell
It’s going to take a while until I recover from how
far I fell
I loved you, I didn’t lie, the pain I feel is real
When I move on, I’m not forgetting you, I’m just
trying to heal
Please know that I would still do anything to make
you happy, anything at all
I love you so much, that the climb was worth the
fall
I wish I could be mad, just shut you out and be
through
Forgetting all the reasons that I fell in love with
you
But if I did that, I wouldn’t learn and I guess
that’s what this is about
And even in my saddest time, of that I have no
doubt
Everything happens for a reason, I still hold this
to be true
Even if to realize it, it meant finally losing you
Everyday is a struggle and I try not to fall down
Wondering what happiness is like and if it’s ever
found
It’s hard waking up all alone, just by myself
But it’s even harder to think of you with somebody
else
If I saw you, I wouldn’t know what to say
I couldn’t watch you, I’d turn my eyes away
I know this is what I asked for, I needed to be set
free
But this isn’t what I wanted, no not this misery
So I guess it’s final and this is the end
I guess you really are only a friend
If we had been smarter and taken it slow
Maybe things would be different and you wouldn’t
want to go
I’ll see you sometime soon, I’ll always be around
But I don’t know if I’m ever going to be anything
but down
It hurts now, but I know there’s nothing I can do
It’s my fault that I’m losing you
I understand that this is how things need to be
But please, no matter what, please don’t forget me
Remember everything we did, every kiss that we
shared
But please most of all remember that I cared
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